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Rose of Olongapo

The Cast

Jennifer Laude, 26, Filipino, Transgender-woman, Joseph Scott Pemberton, 19, U.S. Marine Soldier and the People of the Philippines

Case in Point

marine15n-8-webJennifer Laude is a Filipino who was murdered by an American soldier on October 11, 2014 during the Rest and Recreation of the Marine Soldiers who recently did series of exercises in Subic port. Her body was found in a motel room by a staff minutes after her assailant left the building. She was seen with her face dipped in the toilet bowl; no movement; no sign of life. This showcases how little we are as citizens of this country in the eyes of the “visiting” Americans – how little are the women, transgender women, and Filipinos. That exemplify how the United States of America treats the Philippines. They can slap us, they can maltreat us, they can bang our heads in a toilet seat and they can kill us. This, for a few knows, is not an isolated case. There are many cases filed in the court against the violations of American Soldiers in our local places yet nothing happened to them, not even to one. This is why we are clamoring for the cancellation of the Visiting Forces Agreement (VFA).

Visiting Forces Agreement

imagesThe Philippine government has an existing agreement with the American government – it states how visiting American forces should be treated, though they are classified as visitors, we, the Filipino people cannot tell them to leave our country. We cannot even dictate what they should do or where they may go. This agreement reflects what kind of agreement our government has with that of the United States of America. This is therefore, a test, to our leaders where it is being showed the real effect of the agreement. If the perpetrator is also a Filipino, he could have been arrested as soon as possible, or put on trial or already undergone DNA testing, but it is otherwise, the process of justice and due process is more complicated – things are more difficult simply because the perpetrator is an American. So what does this show? There is that special treatment to U.S. soldier to those who commit violations. But this case is not a simple violation – this is a violation of human rights – this is murder. Does this mean it is free to strangle anyone, or to rape or to kill anybody so as long as you are an American soldier? If this issue does not get good action, it will only develop among all American soldiers that they are protected and can do whatever they please. They develop that sense of immunity and sense of impunity as if they can commit freely all sorts of crimes because they are very much shielded with VFA and this makes the case of Jennifer Laude different. We should further understands that this is not a simply ending of a life because it has to be understood in its whole context. They say that the VFA is beneficial to our military forces because they train our Filipino soldiers but some reports are otherwise. Take Zambales for example, the Aetas (Indigenous filipino people) are the one training them. Its them learning from us not us learning from them. And aside learning from us, the can hurt, rape, kill anyone they pleases to. I hope that we will all take this as not only Jennifer’s case but a case of us all against the American violators – that this is a fight of the Filipino People seeking justice against the abusive agreement we have. How in the fucking blue hell are we expecting a 19 year old American to “train” our Filipino Soldiers.

The Battle in Custody

Joseph-Scott-Pemberton.2As for me, in this sole case, I equate Custody with Justice. If the Philippine criminal law will not have the criminal custody of the accused then it’s like justice hasn’t been served at all. We can’t have the custody even after proving Pemberton is guilty because that is what is stated in the VFA. Up until today, nobody can ever attest that they have seen Pemberton. Allegedly, he is currently detained in a facility where no Filipino police nor soldiers can get inside. Whereas it is being guarded by American Soldiers. Whereas even if that facility is inside a Philippine Military Base, it is considered a territory of the America because that is what is being stated in the VFA. The side of Laude filed an Omnibus Motion to the court to have Pemberton undergo specimen testing to be cross-matched with the condom with fresh seminal fluid and fecal materials found in the motel room where Jennifer was found dead. The American embassy said that the case have their full support but when asked if that mean they will show Pemberton before the court as a form of cooperation to the case he said only what is being stated in the VFA is what we are going to follow. This is a clear circumvention of the law where we use law in their sole interest. U.S. serves no interest other that its own interest – nothing more. U.S. is not here to serve the Filipino people, U.S. soldiers are not here to protect us. Aren’t our government need to serve our interest? If the U.S. government is so determined to protect its soldiers and care for their interest, then why can’t our government do the same to the Laude Family, to us – the so called boss? This is the kind of government we have today: not-so pro-filipino.

This can happened not only in Olongapo, but in every place where VFA happens.

Dear Bashers of Laude (Honor)

CYMERA_20141024_004609Jennifer is gay, in fact, a transgender-woman. She has a German fiance but still wanted to have sex to other man. But this, all these, does not serves as permit to kill her. For those of you who have been saying that it is only just for her to suffer what she did, you are clearly siding with evil. We, as imperfect people, have freedom of opinion but we are not called to cast them with prejudice.

Happy Birthday Jennifer

CYMERA_20141024_010811Allow me to call her “she” as this is her gender preference and I want to give that choice to her until afterlife. November 4, 2014 is Jennifer’s birthday. She is a good daughter and a selfless one, too. She takes care of her mother’s medicines, her younger sibling’s education and her uncle’s treatment to stroke. Jennifer told her nephew who is also gay: “Don’t let anyone look down to us just because we are gay. We have worth, and we will show them that.” She is not moneyed, she is poor. But she is able to help her friends financially to the last coin she have. Selfless, indeed. For one night, she thought about herself, what she wants, what makes her happy for a very short time, but it took one ruthless man to take away the life of the rose from its garden in Olongapo. This should be treated as a Hate Crime. May this open  positive discussion on gender sensitivity, LGBT rights that will encourage tolerance and acceptance. May the power of rainbow be with you and your family. and to all members o the LGBT community and to all victims of VFA and to all Filipinos fighting for sovereignty.

The poem says “Jennifer, Jennifer, why so quiet, are you there? We don’t need to send you flowers, to those who love you, you’re a flower. When you’re gone, out will come, multitudes will bloom, thousands will flower!”

This song I dedicate to all those who, in every morning they wake up, faces prejudice that stabs through and through:

*Guided by the Kilusan Para sa Pambansang Demokrasya perspective,

One Song At A Time (MusiKARAMAY)

“I try to live my life in relation to others, by putting myself into other people’s shoes. I believe in the importance of empathy and compassion because I see if all of us can come together and work as one we can all be advocates of change. And I want to inspire and encourage everyone to take up a personal advocacy such as my own…because I believe it is truly in giving that makes us beautiful.” said Valerie Weigmann as her winning answer on the night she was crowned Ms. World 2014. Not so many days after her triumph, I was invited by Raoul, a good friend, to see a concert for a cause. And in this benefit concert, I knew Valerie Weigmann was right when she said we should choose our own advocacy like the proprietor of the said event, Climax.

The real life super hero, Climax!

The real life super hero, Climax!

Climax is a music band consisting of four Filipino musicians/performers. The vocalist of the band is Max Guerrero, who prefers to be called “Climax”, he wears a mask in and out of the stage. When asked why wearing a mask is such a peg of their band, he explained that we have been long believers of super heroes with super powers to save the world – that in order to be able to do something good, one needs to have a cape and fly, or summon thunder and fire or have extraordinary speed and strength. But Climax believes that heroes can be ordinary humans too or should I say we can all be heroes, too. Climax is a real life super hero that uses music to change the world.

It all started when they (Climax) performed in the walking subway of a train station in Manila, Ph, where blind musicians perform to receive alms from passers by. They thought of performing for the blind musicians and give all the money they have collected to them. Then MusiKARAMAY was born. Since then, they have been performing in the street to raise fund for the young cancer patients, disaster survivors and other needy and marginalized people in our society.

MusiKARAMAY is the social responsibility arm of the band. It aims to use street music to change the world one step at a time. What makes it a cool advocacy is that they believe in the power of common goal that is why it is also their aim to influence other musicians/artists to do the same, this way, a more positive attribute will be given to the Filipino bands by their society. While the formation of the cast of this heroic band and their cause-oriented direction will not be possible if not for the efforts of Laila Chikadora and Alagang Kapatid Foundation.

October 14, 2014 marks the 1st anniversary of MusiKARAMAY. Climax threw a benefit concert, organized by Stanley Seludo in drums,  where ALL proceeds will go to the Aeta Community in the municipality of Mayantoc, Province of Tarlac, Region-III, Luzon, Philippines. Their plan is to buy a hectare of land and donate it to the Indigenous People of the said place for them to use in producing their crops, thus, giving them a sustainable livelihood within their community. The said event was held at The Music Hall, Metrowalk, Ortigas In this remarkable event, I saw a league of heroes. I am sure that all of the people who were there was inspired and I am one of them. Their original song, Pangarap, made eveything more meaningful.

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#ClimaxExperience #TeamClimax with the Super Base, the Mask, the Director and the Man!

The Crib was the opening act of the event, Jeff Cole, their lead singer was his last night of performance with his band, I guess he is leaving them for some good reasons but it was a good venue for one last group performance. Njel De Mesa, a board of director of the Philscap, a nationwide organization for the writers and composers, was also there. He gave us a refreshing performance I didn’t thought I will have the chance to hear live. Thyro Alfaro and Yumi Lacsamana were the only performers via duet, aside from being good singers, they are also damn good song writers. Julianne was one of my favorite performers that night, she delivered a good sense of positive songs. Sheng Belmonte is undeniably one of the powerful performers ever stood on that stage, she is an advocate of woman empowerment, its not a surprise she did a Beyonce song. Top Suzara expresses feet-on-ground advocacy for even if he was an established icon in the music industry, he still supports, first hand, this kinds of movements while Kettle Mata is simply one of a kind. Zion Aquino admits that he is currently in a war against cancer and that he is able to because of the help of friends in the industry, “When I get well, I will do the same.” he promised. Voices of 5 is a surprise for me, thumbs up! Angela Torres stands her name as she was a sweet thing in the late night full of hope. Filipinas, well, what can I say, beauty, talent, goodness is awesomeness for these Pinays! And other performers like Mike Chan who made the night impossible to yawn. Forgive me if I didn’t get all your names.

Its a mad world we live in, but these guys declares hope – hope to better the world one song at a time.

At the end of the show, Climax said “As long as there are streets and there is music, Climax is here to stay.” With that, may all the odds ever be in your favor, Climax Band.

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If any of you want to take part in this movement, you are most welcome to get in touch with Mr. Stanley Seludo. 🙂

BARELY EMOTIONAL OR PLAIN STRATEGY? (5th SONA of the Yellow Army)

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Vague and expansive charges notwithstanding, I sat for some time thinking about the topic. I sat staring at a blank screen, the blinking icon mocking my lack of inspiration. And then it hit me- why I was so caught up on the topic, and why I wouldn’t be able to answer it all. It was simply a matter of inspiration. I am not sure what the operating premise of this assignment is. And I wouldn’t know how, in good measure, be able to honestly answer it without jeopardizing principles long since solidified in my mind. And in times when we find there is no right way to answer, we must find it in ourselves to say something from our hearts. For the die-hard fans of PNoy, it could be a speech of hope but then as a speaker and a ghost writer, it is in my knowledge that speech are in form, structure wherein every word and every pause and every tone creates a desirable impact. It is all planned.

I wouldn’t mention here in the paper what PNoy mentioned in his speech, what I want to stress are the things I did not here yet seemingly important for me to here. As I write this, I have been forming a chain in my mind, a chain that goes a long way from issue to issue and thought that everything that our country is facing right now, and since in the past, are undeniably connected to the point that I find it hard to decipher where it all started. And suddenly a word popped-up: Mismanagement. Yes. Maybe because our government is pressured on what America wants and not on what Filipino needs. Why am I saying this? I am digging from the money we borrow from the international Fund and the agreements that comes along with them. Making us feel pressured to target universal goals in quantity, in compliance with their conditions, and failing to focus on the quality.

To make it more clearly, the Philippines needs a high quality education that will teach the young how to be competitive globally but by serving our own country. K-12 and TESDA is creating a country of employees, private company servants, job-order workers which will not in any way makes our country progress and will only prosper international and private companies. As far as I believe.

Another point, the Philippines needs an economically advantage industry favourable to agriculture because that is what our country is- an Agricultural Country, yet farmers themselves who feed the nation are starving and what does we get from PNoy as his answer? Importation.

Another thing, it is good to let the law-makers and abusers of Pork-barrel funds are made accountable to what they do, and the recent development about this national issue is very much appreciated but wouldn’t it be better if aside from prosecution, we will also develop a preventive action to minimize this kind of magnanimous corruption? Yes, I am talking about the Freedom of Information Bill.

All these and more were not realized or mentioned or acted upon. All because we are tied up with an agreement to Mr. Sam. We, Filipinos, should think to ourselves ‘is the SONA for us, or a sort of accomplishment report to PNoy’s real boss? Who is his real boss?

Let me justify the title of this paper before I put this to end. It refers to the widely talked about emotional part of speech. Because we, writers and public speakers, studied how to create a compelling emotional impact to our audiences. Yet, our president must try a little more.

And so I sound like a real antagonist.

Meanwhile I remember, “The dogmas of the quiet past are inadequate to the stormy present. The occasion is piled high with difficulty, and we must rise with the occasion. As our case is new, so we must think anew and act anew. We must disenthrall ourselves, and then we shall save our country.” The immortal words of Abraham Lincoln encourage us to be resolute in our convictions. Philippines is not the greatest country in the world. But let us beat on tirelessly in full measure to ensure our mistakes are never borne back ceaselessly into the past, but in a direction the world would applaud. Let us take the road less travelled by; maybe that’s all it ever took to make a difference.

Bobong Aktibista (Dumb Activist)

“I’m for truth, no matter who tells it. I’m for justice, no matter who it is for or against. I’m a human being, first and foremost, and as such I’m for whoever and whatever benefits humanity as a whole.” ― Malcolm X

I am for truth that’s why I expose it while you are for injustice that’s why you bury it. Human being is the steward of humanity; humanity is the soul of humanitarian; humanitarian upholds human rights to whoever for whatsoever. (The dumb activist explains.)

“We must always take sides. Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented.” ― Elie Wiesel

You who condemn me has taken their side – the safe side of silence. (The dumb activist pointed.)

“Get up, stand up, Stand up for your rights. Get up, stand up, Don’t give up the fight.”
― Bob MarleyBob Marley – Legend

If they can’t do it, we, who are able, are challenged to do it for them. But unfortunately, you are all coward. (The dumb activist described.)

“It’s the action, not the fruit of the action, that’s important. You have to do the right thing. It may not be in your power, may not be in your time, that there’ll be any fruit. But that doesn’t mean you stop doing the right thing. You may never know what results come from your action. But if you do nothing, there will be no result.” ― Mahatma Gandhi

Now I have seen the result: A few said “You are incredibly brave”, some said “Thank you”, more said “I can relate.”, but the majority said “Why? Asshole!” But It doesn’t mean I stop doing the right thing, and it surely means you will keep on silencing yourselves. (The dumb activist heard.)

“To sin by silence, when they should protest, makes cowards of men.”  ― Ella Wheeler Wilcox

I have many sin of commission, and I don’t want sin of omission aggravates them. But you who are silent in front of your oppressors and mocked the dumb activist, congratulations, you have committed both. (Greetings from the dumb activist)

 “One has a moral responsibility to disobey unjust laws.” ― Martin Luther King Jr.

I am the dumb and you are not so i guess you already understand this. (The dumb activist admitted sarcastically.)

“Silence becomes cowardice when occasion demands speaking out the whole truth and acting accordingly.” ― Mahatma Gandhi

Silence = Coward (Oh, I did not mean that was you. Sorry I am so dumb.)

“A patriot must always be ready to defend his country against his government.”  ― Edward Abbey

I thought patriotism is what government employees should have in character. I don’t know but it seems you are all good actors. Far better than me. (The dumb activist assumes.)

“We declare our right on this earth…to be a human being, to be respected as a human being, to be given the rights of a human being in this society, on this earth, in this day, which we intend to bring into existence by any means necessary.” ― Malcolm X

By any means. (The dumb activist repeated.)

“Because it’s no longer enough to be a decent person. It’s no longer enough to shake our heads and make concerned grimaces at the news. True enlightened activism is the only thing that can save humanity from itself.” ― Joss Whedon

Now I shake my head, but this press is no longer enough to knock out the silence in you. (The dumb activist regrets.)

Below is the material I published when I was branded “bobong aktibista” by some smart people.(LOL) Well, the scholars, philosophers, and great names have spoken. YOUR SILENCE IS SO LOUD THAT NO MATTER HOW FORCEFULLY WE SHOUT, WE CANNOT BE HEARD.

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2012 in review

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City of San Fernando’s cycle of 40

August 7, 2012, the first day of rain, my mother said back in 1972, San Fernando, Pampanga experienced a 40-days rain which left San Fernando hungry, flooded and damaged. Exactly after 40 years, waters above fires again.

Before all these happened, San Fernando emerged into a prosperous city of safe and quiet roads railed with lanterns at night and perhaps one of the first to respond in calamity affected municipalities in Pampanga.

Then…

August 7, 2012|4pm|Flood of 5ft|12,819 families or 50,990 individuals affected.

August 7, 2012|9pm|Flood of 6ft|12,951 families or 51,621 individuals affected.

August 8, 2012|10am|Flood over 6ft|13,076 families 52,177 individuals affected.

August 8, 2012|4pm|Flood over 6ft|14,410 families 57,530 individuals affected.

August 9, 2012|6am|Flood over 6ft|16,618 families 68,407 individuals affected.

With reported casualty (4) and a number of missing people.

This was the height and slowly subsided. During the calamity, an enormous relief and rescue system emerged within the city government of San Fernando. I won’t anymore enumerate what they’ve done for surely it was something that mitigated the damages and sufferings of the Fernandinos and some people in the neighboring municipalities. Just good job.

After all this, can you tell I was here?

Untold Stories:

There was this rescuer who is shivering in coldness because of being out in the rain in line of his duty to rescue. He tried to ask for some donated clothes to warm him up. They refused to give him and said that the donated clothes are only for the victims. This rescuer’s home is affected by flood, too.

One of the government employee was tasked to go to a certain affected place with all the rescuers (take note, all the rescuers). They were there to respond. This father attended to his duty to the government but later on sobbed when he knew all rescuers were instructed to respond in A SUBDIVISION all at the same time. Looking back, this man left his family on the roof, cold and hungry only to know that the rescue team has poor strategy in dispersing their people.

Raw Photos taken from CSFP Facebook Page

Insidious Naked Women Playing MAHJONG

Take a close look at the painting.

One of the surrealist paintings of Lui Liu

Interesting to see, I know because it even invited me to search more about it. As I did, I found out that before it reached my laptop, it has already come across countries, uploaded on facebook, drawn attention and created controversy o’er the internet. If you are the type of a person who is busy being a consumerist, you won’t pay any attention to such simply because you don’t know any whys.

As a rule of thumb, an artist is not obliged to explain the meaning behind his work; on the contrary, the audience assumes freedom of interpretation, thus highly subjective and opinionated. Let me throw a support to the controversial interpretation:

Right in front, the Asian lady with a tattoo on her back is China.
On the left, the lady full of concentration is Japan.
Dressed at the top looking sideways is USA. Lying rather seductively is Russia. The little girl standing by the side is Taiwan 

China “tripled” the Dong tiles (East Winds, this is a double up). This means that China has arisen with the circumstances (the winds); maybe that is the display of the “East Wind” missiles she possesses now. It looks like China is doing ok, but there is no clue about the other cards (tiles) since we don’t see them. Meanwhile she is up to no good under the table.

USA, appearing confident, is looking at Taiwan. Perhaps she is reading Taiwan’s expression since Taiwan has the freedom to look at the deck of the other girls. Maybe USA is trying to get information.

Russia may appear funny on her position but it is far from that. One leg is on USA and one hand is passing card(s) to China. There are some discreet exchanges going on, suspicious is it not?

Japan has all eyes on the cards, unaware of what others are doing. Ignorant of what is happening around. She neither pays enough attention to what is going on outside Japan nor knows what other countries consider Japan to be like.

Taiwan wears a red abdominal vest, maybe implying she is the last successor of the Chinese culture. She holds a tray of fruits in one hand and a fruit knife in the other, looking quietly at China with resentment. But she has no option. She is not in the game, all she can do is to cut and serve fruit (a little girl too young to play the game?). She seems to hate the great.

Dark clouds hang over the river outside the window implying an imminent cross-strait crisis. A storm is about to come.
And the portrait on the wall, it won’t be hanging there if he is no one. He has the mustache of Sun Yet Sun, the bald head of Chiang Kai Set, the face of Mao Tze Tong. If you don’t know them, they are the great men of China.

The painter is known for his naked works. However, in here, the way the ladies are dressed seems to imply something.
China bares her top, with panties and a skirt; USA is almost fully dressed but bares her bottom; Russia is left with only panties; Japan, naked. Do you see these as a reflection each nation’s status? The attire of USA appears to be most complete, probably because she is still the most powerful. Others are short of something here and there. Though USA is most presentable, she has nevertheless exposed her bottom (line). China and Russia look naked but keep their private parts covered.

We assume this is a stripping game where the loser removes a piece of clothing. A game it is where losing and winning matters.

In this game, if China loses, she will be like Russia today, lying down and broken like the collapse of Soviet Union. If USA loses, she will also be like Russia. If Russia loses again, then she has nothing left while Japan is already left with nothing.

Russia may appear to have drawn an extra tile (by the rule of the game, she cannot complete the game i.e. cannot win) and is hanging on for nothing BUT she is actually exchanging tiles with China. The other person hanging on is Japan since she has no more “chips”. She is out of the game if she loses.

In conclusion:

USA is pretending. She looks most glorious but faces great dangers. If she loses this game, she loses her dominating position. Shame. To win, she must use countries that can look over China. Like how she looks at Taiwan perhaps. Trying to guess what her face reads.

Russia has a leg each on a boat, most sly. Her situation is a little like China after liberation (when the communist took over China), sometimes with the USSR and sometimes with USA. Due to her lack of self sufficiency, she has to yo-yo between two parties for survival and room of development. She stays in both sides of the swing.

China has many tiles but they are not in view. Does that imply China keeps her strengths under wrap? And she is exchanging tiles with Russia under the table.

USA can only guess from the expression of Taiwan what may be happening between China and Russia.

Japan looks ignorant as she continues to focus on her cards.

China’s hand (of tiles) is most unpredictable.

Poor Japan … there are so many things happening around her. She has no chance of a win and she is out the moment she loses.

Taiwan keeps watch as a bystander. She sees all that transpired in the game and she understands. But she is not qualified to, nor capable of participating in the game. She has no right to speak. She is full of grievances and is utterly helpless. She can only be the maid, offering fruits to the winner(s). Does she want to be in the game and use the knife instead?

The winner should be a pick between China and USA, there is little doubt about this. Then again if you notice, they are playing Chinese Mahjong, not Western Poker.

Playing with the rules of a Chinese game, what are the odds for USA?

Eye Candies of my Generation

Please play this song most fitted to them before you continue reading…

…When I see a gal, I always make it a point to mention to them what I notice to be great about them, well that is, if there is. But these four ladies you are about to meet are my generation’s finest. There are a lot more beautiful girls out there; models, artists, mainstream actresses and schoolmates, officemates and even passer bys but I can only look at them by far, difference is, the following are my friends. They are, by far, four of the finest eye candies of my life. They are all beautiful but NOT equally beautiful. Incomparable with each other, they live their own essence. Mind you, they are femininity, brain and attitude all in one.

Erika Cord-Cruz | Mean Girl in Spring | Born on February 7

She’s a tear jerking buddy. We cried and laughed together many times. She doesn’t mind being in a Catholic School ‘cause she’s mean when she is mad. She totally disagree with the norm that an educated person acts the proper way; this girl reacts the real way no matter what ugly humps her high heels crosses over. You can’t make this girl cry unless your value is that of a gem but when she does, she is sure to shed her thick heavy tears. She lives her life to the fullest. How? Hmmmm She eats ‘till she’s full and eats some more; she laugh ‘till she tears; she endures ‘till you leave and she drinks ‘till she drop! When you came across her and did try to belittle this midget, don’t tell me I didn’t warn you about the black belter nurse.

Ashley Sue Imler |  Sound of Summer |  Born on March 24 

Many people will pay to hear her voice but for now, she offers it to her dear church. With her looks and presence, it is intimidating to have her around (at first) but I thought wrong because she’s easy to get along with. Having so many skills and dreams perhaps, she’s quite confused what course in college she is going to finish. I hope at this point she now knows what her heart wants. Nonetheless, what she do, she does best. In the heat of her summerness, there’s only one thing she hates to melt; her chocolates! It’s up to you how to find the connection between her flaring beauty with her kind heart and soft voice.

Ken San Luis | Autumn Rush | Born on August 14

She is a ramp model and winner of many pageants. But I cannot box her just with that single line. She is a combination of many things an active girl is. She is game to hit the road any direction ‘till moon light. She travels and cares less about the little scratches she gets. She is a student leader in our school not gullible like other student politicians. And after a long fight with life and many more, she goes back to where she feels she is home. Amazingly, this girl survives no matter what. My guess is that her prayers as she utters them are definitely favored by the Blessed Woman. No one can judge her because with her decisions, she is the last leaf to fall.

Casey Guarin | Red in Winter | Born on November 20

             Like how the winter chills everyone, Casey is sure to get anything she will want. She definitely has a lot of haters (I’m not sure if it pays to mention this because really, she doesn’t give a damn.) Not an effort will come from her to tell you it pleases her to like her. “Come what may” is what her personality speaks about; her fierce attitude will save her anyway. -now that made me wonder where all the medals displayed on her wall came from. It takes a real man to know how to take care of this woman even if it seems she doesn’t need it. She could be the alcohol in your drink or a real nice friend rare to find. One thing is certain, she will stain white with red.

Men won’t live a year without women like them.

She’s Everything by Brad Paisley

She’s a yellow pair of running shoes
A holey pair of jeans
She looks great in cheap sunglasses
She looks great in anything
She’s I want a piece of chocolate
Take me to a movie
She’s I can’t find a thing to wear
Now and then she’s moody

She’s a Saturn with a sunroof
With her brown hair a-blowing
She’s a soft place to land
And a good feeling knowing
She’s a warm conversation
That I wouldn’t miss for nothing
She’s a fighter when she’s mad
And she’s a lover when she’s loving

[Chorus]
And she’s everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
I talk about her, I go on and on and on
‘Cause she’s everything to me

She’s a Saturday out on the town
And a church girl on Sunday
She’s a cross around her neck
And a cuss word ’cause its Monday
She’s a bubble bath and candles
Baby come and kiss me
She’s a one glass of wine
And she’s feeling kinda tipsy

She’s the giver I wish I could be
And the stealer of the covers
She’s a picture in my wallet
and my unborn children’s mother
She’s the hand that I’m holding
When I’m on my knees and praying
She’s the answer to my prayer
And she’s the song that I’m playing

[Repeat chorus]

She’s the voice I love to hear
Someday when I’m ninety
She’s that wooden rocking chair
I want rocking right beside me
Everyday that passes
I only love her more
Yeah, she’s the one
That I’d lay down my own life for

And she’s everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
She’s everything to me
Yeah she’s everything to me

Everything I ever wanted
And everything I need
She’s everything to me

PUTA ng Silanganan

This is NOT my work. I just decided to share with you and at the same time preserve it here this short story written in Filipino. I have a few critic regarding the narration but I opted not to change anything in respect to the writer (whoever s/he is). Here you go:

Minsan may Isang Puta 

Tingin ng mga bobong kapitbahay ko, puta daw ako. Nagpapagamit, binabayaran. Sabi nila, ako daw ang pinakamaganda at pinakasikat sa aming lugar noon. Di ko nga alam kung sumpa ito, dahil dito naletse ang kinabukasan ko.

Tara, makinig ka muna sa kwento ko, yosi muna tayo.

Alam mo, maraming lumapit sa akin. Nagkagusto at naakit. Ang hirap pag lahat sa iyo, virgin eh. Tinanggap ko naman silang tao, bakit kaya nila ako ginago? Hindi ko maintindihan ang mga nangyari sa akin. Bukas palad ko naman silang pinakitunguhan, ni hindi ko nga itinuring na iba. Iniisip ko na nga lang na kasi di sila taga rito kaya siguro talagang ganoon.

Tatlong malilibog na foreigners ang nagpyesta sa katawan ko. Sabi nila na-rape daw ako.

Sa tatlong beses akong nagahasa, ang pinakahuli ang di ko makakalimutan.

Parang maski di ko ginusto ang mga nangyari, hinahanap-hanap ko siya. Kasi, ibang-iba ang hagod niya. Umiikot ang mundo ko sa tuwing ginagamit niya ako. May mga pagkakaton na nasusuka na ko sa mga nangyayari sa aming dalawa. Parang ‘pag humahalinghing siya, nararamdaman ko na nalalason ako.. Gusto ko mang umayaw, hindi ko makuhang humindi. Hindi ko din alam kung bakit. Ibang klase din kasi siya mag-sorry eh, lalo pa at inalagaan niya ako at ang mga naging anak ko.

Alam mo, parating ang dami naming regalo – may chocolates, yosi at ano ka! May datung pa! Nakakabaliw siya! Alam kong ginagamit niya lang ako pero pagamit naman ako nang pagamit. Sa kanya namin natutunan mag-inggles, di lang magsulat ha! Magbasa pa!

Nung kinasama ko siya, guminhawa buhay namin. Sosyal na sosyal kami! Ewan ko nga ba, akala ko napapamahal na ako sa kanya. Akala ko tuloy-tuloy na kaligayahan namin, yun pala unti-unti niya akong pinapatay.

Punyetang buhay! Sa dami ng lason na sinaksak niya sa katawan ko, muntik na akong malaspag. Ang daming nagsabi na ang tanga tanga ko. Palayasin ko na daw. Taon ang binilang bago ako natauhang makining sa payo. Iniisip ko kasi na parang di ko kakayanin na mawala siya sa akin… Sa amin! .

Sa tulong ng ilan sa mga anak ko, napalayas ko ang demonyo pero ang hirap magsimula. Hindi nga ako sigurado kung nabunutan ako ng tinik o nadagdagan pa. Masyado na kasi kaming nasanay sa sarap ng buhay na naranasan namin sa kanya, kaya eto nabaon kami sa utang. Lubog na lubog kami sa pagkakautang, kulang yata pati kaluluwa namin para ibayad sa mga inutang namin.

Nakakahiya man aminin pero hanggang ngayon, sa tuwing mabigat ang problema ko, siya ang tinatakbuhan ko. ‘Yun nga lang, kapit sa patalim sabi nga nila. Para akong isang aso na nangagat ng amo, na bumabahag ang buntot at umaamo kapag nangangailangan.

Usap-usapan ako ng mga kapitbahay ko. May nanghihinayang, namumuhi at naaawa. Puta na kasi ang isang magandang katulad ko. Ang dating hinahangaan at humahalina ay nabibili sa murang halaga. Alam mo maski ganun ang mga nangyari sa akin, nilakasan ko pa rin ang loob ko. Kailangan makita ng mga anak ko, na masasandalan nila ako maski ano pang mangyari.

Maski ano pa ang sabihin ng iba, sinisikap namin na maging maganda ang buhay namin. Nag-aambisyon kami at nangangarap. Ayun, may mga anak ako na nasa Japan, Hong Kong, Saudi. Yung iba nag-US, Canada, Europe. ‘Yung iba ayaw umalis sa akin. Halos lahat, wala naman silbi. Masaya daw sa piling ko, maski amoy pusali ako.

Sa dami ng mga anak ko na nagsisikap na tulungan ang kalagayan namin, siya din ang dami ng mga anak ko na nanamantala sa kabuhayan at kayaman na itinatabi ko para sa punyetang kinabukasan naming lahat. Eto na nga ang panahon na halos di na kami makaahon sa hirap ng buhay. Napakahirap dahil nasanay na kami sa ginhawa at sarap.

Alam mo, gusto ko na sanang tumigil sa pagpuputa kaso ang laki talaga ng letseng utang ko eh. Palaki pa ng palaki! Paano na lang ang mga anak kong naiwan sa aking puder? At paano na lang ang mga anak kong nasa abroad? Baka di na nila ako balikan o bisitahin man lang? Hindi na importante kung laspagin man ang ganda ko, madama lang ng mga anak ko ang pagmamahal ko. Malaman nila na ibibigay ko ang lahat para sa kanila.

Sa tuwing titingin ako sa salamin, alam ko maganda pa rin ako. Meron pa din ang bilib sa akin. Napapag-usapan pa din. Sa tuwing nakikita ko ang mukha ko sa salamin, nakikita ko ang mga anak ko. Tutulo na lang ang mga luha ko ng di ko namamalayan. Ang gagaling nga ng mga anak ko eh, namamayagpag kahit saan sila pumunta. Mahusay sa kahit anong gawain. Tama man o mali.

Sa dami ng mga anak ko, iilan lang ang may malasakit sa akin. May malasakit man, nahihilaw pa.

Mabigat dalahin para sa akin, ang katotohanan na ni minsan ay di kami naging isang pamilya. Halos lahat ng mga anak ko, galit sa isa’t isa. IIlan ang gusto magtulungan, naghihilahan pa. Madalas kong itinatanong sa sarili ko kung naging masama ba akong nanay para magturingan ng ganito ang mga anak ko?

Kanino bang similya ng demonyo nanggaling ang mga anak kong maituturing mong may mga pinag-aralan pero nakakadama ng saya at sarap sa paghihirap ng kapatid nila? Di ko lubos maisip kung saan impiyerno nanggaling ang kasikiman ng ilan sa mga anak kong ito. Sila pa naman ang inaasahan kong magbabangon sa amin. Nakakabaliw isipin na natitiis nila ang kalagayan ng kanilang mga kapatid na halos mamatay sa hirap ng buhay. Parang di sila magkakapatid sa tindi ng pagkaganid at walang pagmamalasakit.

Ang di ko akalain ay mismong mga anak ko, ang tuluyang sisira sa akin. Kinapital ang laspag na ganda ko. Masaya sila sa mga nabibili nila mula sa pinagputahan ko. Buong angas nilang pinagyayabang ang mga pansamantalang yaman at ang kanilang hilaw na pagkatao sa mga makakakita at makikinig. Talaga bang nakakalula ang materyal na kayamanan at mga titulong ikinakabit sa pangalan? Hindi ko maintindihan.

Minsan sa pagtingin ko sa salamin, ni hindi ko na nga kilala sarili ko.

Dadating na naman ang pasko, sana maalala naman ako ng mga anak ko. Ilang linggo pa, magbabagong taon na. Natatakot ako sa taong darating. Ngayon pa lang usap-usapan na ang susunod na pangbubugaw sa akin. Gagamitin pa nila ang kahinaan ng mga kapatid nilang alipin sa kalam ng tiyan. Sa tagal ng panahong ganito ang sitwasyon namin parang eto lang ang sulok na gagalawan ko. Sana may magtanggol naman sa akin. Ipaglaban naman nila ako. Gusto kong isigaw: “Ina ninyo ako! Pagmamahal nyo lang ang kailangan ko!”

Sensya na, ang haba na ng drama ko. Masisira na ang make up ko nito eh. Salamat ha, pinakinggan mo ako. Malaking bagay sa akin na nakausap kita. Ang tagal nating nag-usap, di man lang ako nagpapakilala.

Ay sorry, di ko nasabi pangalan ko.

Pilipinas nga pala.

WEIRDtle

She said to her mother, “One day, ako ang magiging PBB Big winner.”

Perhaps one of, if not, the most enigmatic personalities to land in Philippine reality TV history, Myrtle Abigail Sarrosa has surely raised the interest – may it be positive or negative – of a lot of people. And that includes me.

First off, let us establish a clear ground of where this analysis is heading by laying down facts and maintaining an unbiased blow-by-blow reaction of the issues and controversies plaguing her. As a rule of thumb, let me define points of how this analysis came up to be by giving a brief background on what interested me most about the issue.

Reality TV shows aren’t really my cup of tea, much more the highly-sensationalized PBB, for the fact that almost everybody who join these competitions are mostly rehashed personalities of one another. There are no “stand-out” characters and usual contestants usually fall on the following stereotypes: the poor boy who is the breadwinner of his family, the kalog and cheerful barrio lass, the misunderstood socialite, the humorous joker with a troubling past, the all-around pretty face, the half-Filipino whose looking for a lost parent, the rich kid who wants to give it a try just for the heck of it, the wannabe artistas, the rulebreaker, so on and so forth. The usual housemates, from the first edition to the latest, usually fit one or two of these labels – different faces, different stories, similar common personalities. That was one of the reasons why I was never interested. Until of course, this season came. Before the popular catchphrase “PBB Teens” came out, this edition already got my attention the day a teaser was aired about the cosplaying, SK President, University of the Philippines student who will join the cast.

Now that’s an interesting combination: a cosplayer that is a young leader and an Iskolar ng Bayan. These three aren’t exactly mutually exclusive, though. UP is one of the most conducive environments in promoting individualism which is why an Iska Cosplayer isn’t something new. Now, a student leader who cosplays may appear as rather far-fetched but this is a phenomenon we have observed to be true in the persona of Myrtle – something that we will count as one of many enigmatic things about her. With all these, what struck me most is not how she is all three, but rather the fact that an SK-president/cosplayer/UP student will join PBB. And this is what got me interested in this PBB season. FINALLY, a new personality is included into that long disused list… the introduction of “THE WEIRD”.

WEIRDTLE

As the url of this blog suggests, this will be a quasi-analysis about the weird person that is Myrtle Abigail Sarrosa. There’s this wonderful cultural process we call reappropriation. Reappropriation refers to the process by which a group reclaims—re-appropriates—terms that were previously used in a way disparaging of that group. Examples of this are how the pejorative ‘nigger’ used to demean black people were re-appropriated into ‘nigga’ as a way of reversing the negative stigma associated with the word. Re-appropriation is also the reason why ‘gay’ is no longer considered irrevocably demoralizing when referring to members of the LGBT community and how ‘otaku’ has developed from its negative background as Japan’s way of referring to someone with obsessive interests in geek culture to something that fandom people would fondly call themselves. In line with this, we will use re-appropriation with the word Myrtle followers (yes, I call you followers, haters) has coined for her: WEIRDTLE. Weird is defined as fantastic; bizarre; or something that refers to that which is mysterious and apparently outside natural law. Basing on the lexical definition of the word, it will be safe enough to assume that Myrtle is, in fact, weird.

It is pointless to enumerate the things that made her strange to other people because these are very apparent. The most obvious indication would be the fact that at least half of the PBB consumer population (as based on online feedback) misunderstands her greatly. This also brings me back to the purpose of this blog. Deconstructing Myrtle Sarrosa and making the intelligent public understand a little bit more about her. I will attempt to decode the phenomenon that is the “MYRTLE LOVE/HATE” and will compartmentalize my analysis in three parts: PERSONALITY BACKGROUND (includes Family History, Childhood, Personality Type, and other factors such as Identity Crisis and Adolescence), ISSUES AND CONTROVERSIES (cosplaying, make-up, loveteams, goals), and REACTION OF THE PEOPLE. So, shall we start?

PERSONALITY

There are many factors which influence a person’s personality. The age-long debate on nature vs nurture is one way of determining or understanding the nature of a person but in this post, we’ll mix the two. To understand Myrtle, one must have a clear mind (it’s a must) and an even clearer knowledge of who she is more than what the PBB management has shared to its audience. To start with this, let us tackle her family.

FAMILY

Myrtle Sarrosa is the eldest daughter of Fatima and Rudolfo “Russ” Sarrosa Jr. Her grandfather, Rudy Sarrosa, is the former mayor of Barotac Nuevo, Iloilo and her dad is a councilor. The Sarrosas, apart from being active in the political scene, are known as one of the relatively wealthier families in Barotac Nuevo. Hence, it is no wonder if Myrtle was brought up with a personal yaya by her side. One may ask, why do we need to raise her family background in this personality analysis? Simple, because this fact alone is enough to answer one of the largest misunderstandings circulating her as of the moment: that is her perfectionist nature and trying too hard to please others.

To assert my stance, let us not jump on this matter upon value-judgment. Let us free our minds of those labels of her being perfectionist/uptight/trying hard and simply focus on her family influence. We neither affirm nor deny if these labels are correct but we will attempt to scratch beyond the surface on why she happened to act this way.

Given the fact that Myrtle is born in a politically-affluent family, she had already been exposed to the public eye at a young age. Like most members of known families, there are a lot of expectations given to you – may it be unspoken or not. Myrtle, by the mere fact that she is a Sarrosa, carries with her not only her name but the name of her family as well. For a teenager (and any other sane human being), this is a rather heavy responsibility to bear. To be ‘perfect’ and ‘proper’ because everything you do will reflect on your family – that even if your family didn’t necessarily demand you to be that way, you will still feel a subliminal need to live up to what was expected of you as part of the clan. This can be one of the reasons why she is so ‘uptight’ and concerned about the way she presents herself. Her trait of being an ‘achiever’ can be credited to this.

Some people may not understand the pressure of being affiliated with an influential family but to those who are smart enough to understand, we can see the reason on why Myrtle’s personality is like that. Moving on…

CHILDHOOD

There was never an officially released statement about Myrtle’s childhood except for those accounts of how she was a victim of bullying back then. On why she was bullied and by whom is something that we cannot answer – and it is also something we do not necessarily need to dig – but it is important that we take in consideration this childhood experience to understand her.

Bullying is a form of aggressive behavior manifested by the use of coercion to affect others, particularly when the behavior is habitual and involves an imbalance of power. Bullying consists of three basic types of abuse – emotional, verbal, and physical. Bullying happens everywhere – in school, church, family, the workplace, home, and neighborhoods. In Myrtle’s case, it’s in school.

Regardless of where it took place, effects of bullying can be serious. It may range from social exclusion to violence to other intense psychological traumas for the victim. People have come up with different defense mechanisms to cope up with bullying; repression, suppression, sublimation, etc. Some people who were once bullied later on become bullies themselves. Some others remain withdrawn all their lives. And a relatively few, managed to bring themselves up and let go of the painful memories associated with childhood demoralization. Bullying is an overrated phenomenon yet it is mostly overlooked. We salute survivors of bullying but what we do not know is anything that happens in childhood leaves scars. Victims may be able to pull themselves together but the insecurities inflicted to them will always be there. It will never leave. It may be neutralized, yes, and some may even try to hide it in the deepest chasms of their consciousness, but it will never leave.

On a deeper observation, one can see how Myrtle is often trapped between the choice of being indifferent to what others feel and trying her best to compromise. This confusion leaves her in a state of being inconsistent with her actions. Perhaps honed by experience from being bullied, she tried to be indifferent to the negative things said to her by the housemates and yet, there’s still that longing to fill the void which is the need to be accepted. This ignites those moments of uncertainty she feels inside the house (a controlled environment) and something that is also supplemented by the next part.

PERSONALITY TYPE

In a generally extraverted country like the Philippines, Myrtle’s personality is more of a “threat” than a “breath of fresh air”. We are not sure what Myrtle’s personality type is exactly but the way we see it, she comes off as an INFJ (using the MBTI system). She, at times, portrays INTJ characteristics too but as of the moment she displays strong INFJ traits.

INFJs, for the less knowledgeable, are among the rarest of the sixteen Myers-Briggs personality types, constituting only 1-3% of the general population. INFJs grow up feeling “different” from their peers. The more pronounced their Introversion and Intuition, the more estranged they are likely to feel. Young INFJs also feel misunderstood by their elders, who can be quick to ignore or dismiss their precocious insights and observations. If given unsympathetic circumstances, INFJs may come to feel isolated or rejected rather early in life. INFJs are “old souls.” They grow up feeling far wiser than would be predicted by their chronological age. INFJs are among the most profoundly creative of all types. Many INFJs struggle with bouts of depression, which may relate to any number of things. They may, for instance, get depressed when they feel their creative inspiration has left them. Or, because of their otherworldliness, they may struggle with feeling deeply alone and misunderstood. INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people’s feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress. Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement. (personality page || personality junkie)

Sounds familiar? Sounds very Myrtle-ish to me.

Myrtle has been referred to recently as someone who “has her own world”. I believe introverts are known for this. However, what I do not understand is how society sees this as something negative. It’s amusing how the world isn’t very lenient to individualists and yet the movers of change and highly-revered personalities in science and arts are mostly introverted (Einstein is an INTP, Carl Gustav Jung is an INFJ, Bill Gates is an INTP, please google the rest). For this, we have come to the conclusion that because introverts spend time being with themselves, the greater majority (extroverts) finds this exhilarating. Fear is something we feel only towards things we do not know. People will not fear something that they are aware of. It is always the unknown —- the less-traversed road, the dark, the thing which we cannot see, the thing we are not sure of —- which strikes fear into our hearts. And maybe, that’s what society feels towards introverts. Because introverts are usually drawn to themselves and only lets a small part of their soul to see, it scares the typical extravert because s/he isn’t able to understand what goes on inside the introvert’s mind.

Myrtle, being an INFJ, is automatically clustered in the 1-3% of the population. As part of the minority, she automatically takes the title WEIRD. She does not fit with the norm and this is why she is misunderstood.

The last argument of the personality part is IDENTITY CRISIS and ADOLESCENT STAGE. I combined the two because they are closely connected. Both are also products of the three previously mentioned topics.

Granting that Myrtle is affected by subconscious concerns related to her familial background, this creates a psychological vacuum in contrast to her being an INFJ. Based on family history, there is the existing notion of communal definition on the way she acts – wherein her actions are an answer to what is expected of her or what she thinks is expected of her. This is contradicting with her need to assert her individuality – the predominant aspect of her being an artistic INFJ. These two highly-polar concepts of communalism and individuality is a ground on what might have caused a ‘personality crises’ for her. For one, this also addresses my previously signposted issue about the contradiction of her “cosplaying” personality and her “SK president” personality.

The beauty of the human soul that most people fail to actually understand is the ability to transcend and be dynamic. Perhaps, we are socially-construed to the notion that one person equals one personality that we fail (or rather we close our mind) to the possibilities of a highly-varied personality other people might possess. When someone shows highly-polarizes traits/habits, we automatically point it as ‘identity crisis’.

On Myrtle, notice how she is very strict when it comes to tasks (to the point of being bossy and anal retentive) and then how she switches to the cute, cheerful otaku that she is once it’s over? This switching of two seemingly opposite personalities is something that society does not like. Society does not like impermanence. Society does not like change – especially if it happens too fast. Society does not like what they cannot predict. This trait of Myrtle is labeled as INCONSISTENCY; because surely, how can you be leader-like, bossy, strict one moment and then be child-like the next? Is that even possible?

Answer? YES, it is. Call it identity crisis if you want but the fact that a person is able to switch her disposition does not automatically mean that she has multiple personality disorders. We believe the right term should be MULTI-FACETED PERSONALITY. And isn’t that something we should glorify? Being able to adapt into any situation at the most comfortable manner without necessarily stepping into other people’s rights and producing the most detrimental effects?

This flows on to the fact that most people forget when dealing about Myrtle: the ADOLESCENT PHASE.

There are people to whom society is most lenient to: pregnant women, PMS-ing females, and teenagers. The common denominator of all these? Right, HORMONES. Myrtle is still a teenager. Hence, she is still dictated by the hormonal imbalances happening in her body. As a teenager, she is expected to commit mistakes. It’s her PRIVILEGE. But maybe because she has established herself initially as a level-headed, mind-over-matter girl, people tend to forget that she is but another teenager. She is subject to mood swings, angst moments, fluctuating emotions, and the like. This adolescent stage also covers one major issue which is her so-called love life. Something that perfectly acts as segue to our ISSUES AND CONTROVERSIES part.

ISSUES AND CONTROVERSIES

THE MYRVES CONUNDRUM: Oh why is she so in denial? Why can’t she simply tell her feelings? Answer? Because she does not want to and she does not feel the need to.

This is a really irksome answer and yet it is something we must accept. Going back to what we have established about her personality and how she is caught between the ‘dazed and confused’ phase at times, we go back on reiterating how her family life played a huge part. Imagine, for 17 years, she has been accustomed to checking and rechecking herself constantly to preserve family name. With this, one cannot simply dictate her to let go of all those years of ‘think before you act’ habit just so she can fit our accepted definition of being “real” (this I will discuss later).

The way Myrtle answered the question thrown to her by ex-housemate Nikka, on how one must not define things as simply black and white and how she cannot say that she has feelings for Yves but cannot say no also because she isn’t sure, tells us a lot about her principles in life. We can assume that Myrtle does like Yves but the fact that she still chose her principles of not having a boyfriend shows how the feelings she has for him isn’t that strong. And of course, who are we to dictate how she should react to that whirlpool of emotions? We are merely spectators. If she gets hurt for keeping her feelings, let her be. It’s hers after all.

Also, have you ever heard of crushes? If your crush tells you he likes you and you like him too, will you immediately say yes? Are you a Disney princess? Funny how people use the catchphrase “PBB Teens?!” when referring to how much they find ‘PDAing teens’ despicable and yet they subtly hint on promoting teenage affairs by imposing the terms “in denial” to a person who, in all due fairness, does not succumb to the “i-like-you-you-like-me-let’s-have-a-baby” mentality. Myrtle is in denial but then again, we cannot impose her on what actions we want her to do. What matters is she can stand up to her decisions and that is something we are yet to see in the coming days/weeks/years.

COSPLAYING: It is a form of self-expression. Much like how singers pour their heartaches to their songs and how dancers channel their frustrations on their dance moves, cosplaying – and any other hobby – works that way. To Myrtle, more than self-expression, cosplay is also a defense mechanism. It is difficult to explain cosplay to people especially if said people had already closed their minds to the notion. As a subculture, we understand the negative contention about cosplaying. Very much how people frown upon kpop lovers, indie bands, etc., something out-of-the-ordinary is a defense mechanism unacceptable to the less mentally-able society members. But then again, we pose this, if people do not find anything wrong with guys/gals singing/acting/dancing/drawing to convert their negative emotions; we do not see the fuss about our friends who let out their frustrations to the lesser-accepted way such as cosplaying. As long as they’re not running over somebody else in the process, why hate on them? In the words of Eugene Domingo, WALANG BASAGAN NG TRIP!

MAKE-UP: Honestly, this is a very irrelevant thing and we don’t even know why it is raised. But for matters of discussion, let us answer it. Make-up enhances appearance; appearance boosts self-esteem; self-esteem makes you happy. (And if make-up is so repulsively wrong, why are celebrities using it?) As long as it is your face you’re experimenting on and it’s your skin to which rashes will grow, we don’t think people need to care even when you decide to paint your face to look like Chuckie’s bride. Once again, WALANG BASAGAN NG TRIP.

ENJOYMENT: Oh, we’ve heard a lot about this!

Myrtle, why are you so hard on yourself?! Myrtle, loosen up! Why are you so uptight? It’s okay to do wrong, stop pressuring yourself! You should learn to enjoy!

Enjoyment varies. One need not party hard just to say she enjoys doing things. I have a friend back in college who spends his time translating snippets of LOTR into binary language. He does that when he is free or when he is not rubbing his nose on his biochem book. It freaks me out, honestly, but if the dude finds enjoyment in that, who am I to judge?

It’s amusing how people comment on Myrtle to loosen up and enjoy yet when she shows that she does by cosplaying, the same people complain.

Ah, Filipinos aren’t we a precious bunch of concerned and inconsistent individuals? If Myrtle finds her happiness in cosplaying, putting on make-up, or competing with herself, then let her be. When she grows up and looks back on things, she’ll learn that mistakes are normal. But then as mere audiences, we are not entitled to hate her (or wish her dead) for this.

GOALS: When asked why she joined PBB, Myrtle answered “to be an inspiration”. This answer spurted raging reactions from haters and fans, alike. The debate can go on forever whether she had lived up to her goal. Personally, the answer to this question is both yes and no. To some, she falls short of their expectations and yet to others, she has inspired them to do something – perhaps hone a craft, speak up, etc. Either way, Myrtle has clearly stated her reason why she joined. It was a very bold thing to say and she might not know the repercussions of her words but the fact that she knows what she’s into and she is determined to get it is inspiring. She got into the house with a goal in mind. She might have faltered along the way but the fact that she always, always manages to pick herself up to get there is amazing.

We can only assume on why she is so keen on proving herself. It might be the family issue or her childhood experience. But what’s most commendable is that, despite her willingness to win, she had never stepped on anybody along the way. This kind of attitude is rare and to see a seventeen-year old kid embody it might came off as a shock to many.

REACTION OF THE PEOPLE

Finally, we have reached the third and most important part. For the record, there is no such thing as Myrtle vs Karen vs Twins vs Harry Potter vs Voldemort vs JYP vs Usagi vs Afghanistan. I don’t understand why people need to make it appear like the Big 4 are fighting against each other. They are friends! PBB is competition, yes, but you can see that these kids have already created a bond. Can we not live well by not putting one down for the sake of another?

Myrtle fans, I know you get bashed a lot but let us be more patient. Emulate the attitude of your bet. Karen/Twins/Roy and other Myrtle-haters, hate is a heavy burden. Why are you even wasting time, effort, and money for someone you do not even like? To prove a point? Well, that’s good but then again, regardless if Myrtle wins or not, she will not lament over the fact that you spent hundreds just to prove how much you hate her. She’ll be surrounded by her fans and the people who love her for her to even acknowledge the ‘point’ you’re trying to make. Same goes to you Karen/Twins/Roy haters. This BBE thing is a manifestation of crab mentality. Aside from monetary purposes, I do not see other reasons why it is necessary in the PBB voting system. If you want your bet to win, do it in a calm and civilized manner. Text BBS.

BBE is the tool of the weak and the hopeless. Do not shame yourself to the point of lowering your level just to justify your enmity to a person who does not even know you exist.

But then again, who am I to speak right? I respect individualism so yea, if you find happiness in adding wrinkles to your face, then go. Enjoy.

Before this post ends, we answer the question: Is Myrtle real?

It depends on your definition of real, actually. How real is real? How do you quantify ‘real’? What if the ‘real’ you is a back-stabbing, in-denial, heartless git? Will it be considered non-real if it is something you are aware of doing and yet you still do it? You fake yourself in front of other people but you know that you are just being true to your preconditioned ‘backstabbing’ self.

Confusing? EXACTLY.

Being real is something we cannot decide (especially if we are not even directly interacting with the person). As human beings, we are subjected to our everyday dealing with our surroundings. Our values are usually impermanent and we might act different now to how we act years ago, but then, does that make us non-real? In psychology, there is this concept called the Johari Window (google it). It is composed of four “windows”: Arena (known to self, known to others), Façade (known to self, unknown to others), Blind Spot (unknown to self, known to others), and Unknown (unknown to others and self). There are a lot of aspects to our personalities that we, ourselves, do not even know. Sometimes, the journey of knowing yourself takes a lifetime. How much more trying to assess another person for being real?

Trying to asking the question whether Myrtle, Karen, Joj/Jai, and Roy have been real is futile. Granting that everybody is so keen on ‘being true’, then let’s change that Big Brother slogan ‘iboto ang nagpakatotoo’ to what it really is: ‘iboto mo ang gusto mo’.

CONCLUSION

We are all granted freedom to give opinions (and in it, the freedom to offend) which is why to argue about things in a subjective manner will lead us nowhere. Myrtle may be playing safe, plastik, malandi, in denial, trying hard, uptight to some and she may be ‘the ideal daughter’, the one who works hard for the common good to others – at the end of the day, Myrtle will be who we think she is to our subjective and biased minds. Hence, it is important that before we jump to name-calling, we should have an objective understanding of why she came to be that way in our perception.

As for me, yes, Myrtle is weird. But so is everyone else. Each one of us has our own dose of weirdness. If you think that her weirdness is annoying, you have to open your eyes and broaden your mind. The way we see it, Myrtle is a walking contradiction. Even though the way she pulls herself together at the moment —- her unwavering determination and her strong sense of self-worth —- is something exceptional for a person her age, she is still young and she still has much to learn.

I can understand why Myrtle has created a buzz in the Philippine entertainment world. Pinoy show business is not yet ready for her kind. Hers is the type which you expect to end up in public office, or in a multi-national conglomerate, or in a National Artist nominee list – not showbiz.